the truth...

just read my brother's blog...seiko the psycho.. hafta say i'm inspired to blog again. but at the moment, a lot of things are happening to me, some which i choose not to reveal to the world, plus my assignment is killing me - mainly because i have lost all interest in it, and am doing it for the sake of completing my degree. thank god my life is not as mundane as my bro's working life, but sometimes, i do agree that we need some kinda routine, else 'life would always be so full of complexities'.

went for a rave party the other night. it was a unforgetable experience. had a long time thinking, and i came to a conclusion that although some might not agree to wat i did, i'd have to say that i didnt regret doing it. and that's the sad truth. i can't undo the past and i think, the most important thing now is that i KNOW it's my first and LAST time doing it. i know it's wrong, but my curiosity got the better off me. this is just who i am - one who is as curious as a cat, one who likes adventures, who likes to try something new, be it, dangerous like skydiving etc.... but i really do know my limits. and those who really really know me, they will agree to that. if given a second chance, and if i'd have known the consequences, i'd still do it. it's just like shaving my head...one day, i'm gonna do it, although i KNOW i'll look ugly, but at least i am able to tell meself that at least, for once in my life, i've done it. and that's that. i won't do it again. i know i wont. i might have hurt or disappoint close friends, and i'm really really sorry. but i pray that u guys won't look at me differently. i'm still me...i'm really grateful that u guys are there to look out for me and i do treasure your friendship. but pls PLS know that i'm still me. please dont judge me.